Faded Feelings

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

--Iris {The Holiday}

I went away to Wales for a month over the summer, and the part where she mentions going somewhere new, and meeting new people who make you feel worthwhile, I can truly relate to. Actually I think I can relate to the whole movie, (except for the whole... falling in love with a new person part). But the problem was... coming back.

Its true when they say you can never really truley run away from your past.

I just find it odd how sometimes love can hurt you so much to the point where it takes, going to another world where you've never been before, to help you stay distracted, or not even help you stay distracted, but to help you truly find yourself, and the happiness that you thought you'd never find again.

But thats where it proves to me.. that there is always hope. Even if its on the other side of the world.

Its still there. And I vow that I will find it again someday, and I will grasp it, and I will never forget it, nor will I ever let it go.