So my friends for some reason love it when I rant... Because it seems to be hilarious for them, cause I do tend to rant about some of the most ridiculous things.. kinda like another friend I know, who rants about dorito chips, or sunfires, potatoes even... and he makes it sound really hilarious, to the point where he can pull ranting off and not look like a jerk for doing it. People love him. ... Not going to name him, cause he may be upset that I even mentioned him...maybe, maybe not.. if you do happen to read this, and you are upset, I am so sorry best bud...(Your Guide To Enlightenment...look for blog in the box to the left)....dont hate me anymore than you possibly already do.... but you know its true, your blogs are awesome...
Anywho, so from now on I will be throwing random rants into my blog, just because I get odd requests for it.
So here goes ...
Weirdos.
You know what really makes me angry. Forgetfullness. Not so much other peoples forgetfullness, mainly my own. I have one of the worst memories in the world. All I can seem to remember most of the time, are bad things. Things that I really really rather not remember. When i'm out trying to have a good time with friends, and/or friends of friends, I'll be doing ok for awhile, and then i'll get this flash of a bad memory, and it'll put me in a really awkward/bad mood, to the point where I'm not having fun anymore because all I can think of is this bad memory, and so I get all quiet, to the point where people actually start judging me.
Its bad enough that i'm an uber shy person in the first place, --like so shy, its ridiculous and actually makes me angry aswell--... I'm not a B*&%$. Or at least I dont purposely try to be one. I'm just shy. {And also have an uncontrollable mind that never shuts up!!} And its not that I dont want to talk to you, its that I cant ever seem to think of anything remotely interesting to say without sounding like a complete tool. There's also those times, where you're with a friend, and you're just meeting their other friends or family members for the first time, or not even for the first time, sometimes its just whenever, and they start going down memory lane, or talking about something that you were never a part of or have no idea what they're talking about... and then they look at you and say this --->>"you're awfully quiet" <<---- {or something along those lines}
What do you say to that? Really?? I dont want to make myself look like an idiot by trying to talk about something that I was either A) never a part of, or B) really had no clue what was being said. So I just sit and listen.
And then there are those times where you finally think of something clever/interesting to say, or you finally do know what everyone else is talking about, but you've been so quiet for so long, that your mouth goes dry, and you {well, I dont know about you but I personally do this} freak out thinking that if you open your mouth for the first time in.. hours, that everyone is going to look at you and think "oh wow, it actually talks!"
Ugh. Why am I so pathetic?!
Random rant right there... just some, pent up emotions I guess, cause I guess i'm just tired of being called the "B word" or 'The Ice Queen'.
First impressions stink! Dont judge someone because they're shy, Please people. Some people take awhile to come out of their shell. I sure as heck do. I know its lame and it sucks, but it takes me even longer to warm up to people and be myself when they're already judging me before they really actually know me.
I dont know.. could just be me.
I'm just saying.
ANYWAYS...Back to my forgetfullness... speaking of forgetfullness..
(I also have a mild case of A.D.D)
So today i'm walking to the Seven Eleven, to break my $10 to get change for the bus, and before I left the house I had to triple check to make sure I had my Ten in my purse and it was sitting right there in my purse all three times I checked. So I get to the counter, open up my purse, and there is no Ten Dollar Bill in my purse, I begin to empty my purse onto the counter, I checked my jean pockets, my coat pockets, and I checked my hoodie pockets, it was nowhere to be found. So I check my purse again. And I check my pockets again. I tell the clerk I'll be back, leave the store and retrace my steps back to my house, staring at the ground, thinking that maybe I put it in my pockets and maybe it fell out. Nope.. no money on the ground, so maybe I took it out and put it on the kitchen table or my bed... nope. I guess i'm not going anywhere now. So i'm sitting here, and i'm about to change back into my 'comfy home pants' (also known as Yoga pants) when something falls out of my back pocket....... Yeaaah. Take a wild guess what it was!! I was so certain I had left it in my purse. I do not recall putting it in my pocket what so ever!!! But hey it happens. When I was shopping with my friend one time, she was on her cellphone, then shortly after she had hung up her cellphone, we were searching for her phone, retraced our steps... moments later, she found it in her pocket.
It happens to the best of us what can I say.
One more thing that happens..typing out your thoughts and then re-reading it and realizing that you were missing a word.. or four..
Have you ever done that?? Typed something out, and then read over it and realized that you were missing half a sentence because you were saying it out loud to yourself while typing, so you thought you typed it but didnt actually type it??
Yup. I do it.. I'm crazy about proper grammar, and pronouncing words correctly. But I tend to do it a lot... and it drives some people bonkers! Myself included.
Myself especially.
It happens most often when i'm having a heated discussion with someone (and by heated I mean angry).
I'll type something and i'll miss a couple words, so then it sounds like i'm saying something totally different and possibly offensive. And then they'll get really pissed off about it, and then i'll be like "no! no no! thats not what I meant, what I meant was..." and then I'll type out what I meant and they'll be all "uh huh, how could you possibly miss that many words"
or one time I even got a response such as:
"Thats kind of an important word, how could you forget that one?"
...Better believe it buster!! It happens!!
I dont like it anymore than you do....
Especially if it offends someone, or gets someone even more upset at me.
It just happens, you get so focused sometimes, and caught up, that you actually end up saying things out loud to yourself, that you jump ahead of yourself while typing.
My apologies.
There's rant number one... well... two rants in one.
Enjoy. :)
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