Dear Body

Dear Body;

I hate that you tend to get sick when i'm stressed or under pressure. Its like you're defective or something. .. I'm sorry i'm so ashamed of you most days, I guess its my fault really, I should take better care of you, I'm sorry that I don't.

Hair;

I'm sorry for blowdrying, straightening, dying, curling, and waving the crap out of you. I am mostly sorry for that ridiculous perm in elementary school. It didn't even come close to being as cool or pretty as I thought it would be.

Eyes;

I love you most of all, and i'm sorry for torturing you with the mass amount of make-up I use on a daily basis. Thank you for the beautiful, long eyelashes. I can never get enough of hearing girls ask jealously "Are those your real eyelashes?" and the other "I can't believe you're not wearing contacts!!"

Thank you for not failing on me.

Eyebrows;

I'm sorry to say but I really dislike you. You're just always so awkward to take care of and make look decent.

Nose;

I'm sorry for piercing you, but you dont seem to mind. Thank you for not rejecting it like Jessicas did so many times. And i'm sorry for dropping my laptop on you. I try my hardest to take good care of you.

Lips Lips Lips;

I wish you were a tad bit bigger/plumper. I'm sorry I chew you so often. Its a habit that i'm trying to break.

I'm sorry I don't smile often, and show off those pearly whites.

I hear its quite a beautiful sight to see, thank you for that and i'll try to show you off more often.

Cheeks;

You're alright. I've grown rather fond of the fact that when I smile and/or laugh, you, along with the help of my chin, turn my face into a heart shape. Appearantly its adorable, so thank you for that.

Arms;

I'm sorry I hurt you way back when.

Hands;

I love you. I'm sorry for the rough manicures I tend to put you through. Thank you for being so small and gentle.

Tummy;

I don't quite know what to make of you. Somedays you'll be hungry all day long, others you'll go a whole day without even wanting any food. Make up your mind already!

I'm sorry I starve you sometime, and don't satisfy your hunger. It all goes with the process of taking better care of my body. I'm sorry i'll feed you absolute junk somedays. Thank you for co-operating with me and not getting completely upset with me when I do.

Legs;

I wish you were a tad bit longer. You're at such an awkward length its hard to buy a pair of jeans without ripping them to shreds on the bottom seam, and its hard to find a decent tailor to hem them properly without turning them into flood pants.

I'm sorry I hide you so much. I should let you see the sun more often, then perhaps you wouldn't be so pastey and I wouldn't be so embarrassed of you. Really I should appreciate you more often, how would I get around without you?

Feet;

I'm sorry for the pain I put you through just to wear a pretty pair of shoes. I should also appreciate you more. Thank you for being small and fitting into sizes 5 to 7. It makes shoe shopping more fun and easy.

Brain;

.. What to say... I should really use you more often. I'm sorry I fry you by wasting my time on the internet when I could be doing better things with my time, like reading or writting.

And last but not least...

Heart;

Oh Heart...

I'm sorry i'm not careful enough with you. You and I have been through some pretty tough times. Maybe if I had listened to you from the start you would not now be so brutally shattered.

I wish there was more I could do to prevent you from being hurt further.

Dear Body;

I will try harder to take better care of you from this day on. I will appreciate you more often, excercise and feed you properly.

I will spend more time outdoors, smiling and laughing, and I will listen to my heart more often.

Love,

Dana-Faye*

Updates/Decisions

Hey Everyone!!

Its been awhile since I wrote a post or ranted about anything... I've kindof been keeping to myself lately, haven't really talked to anyone in quite some time, trying to get some 'me' time in, and just making important decisions on life... a lot of personal stuff has been going down so I'm making some changes in my life... { ...I'll get into some of it in a bit... } I just started talking to everyone again yesterday... But its mainly cause i've been so busy lately. Plus with the fact that I pretty much have nothing to really rant about right now.

I dont know what it is lately, but i'm just in a good mood all the time. I dont know if its cause I have a job finally, and I dont feel like a bum or what, but... I'm just really content with life right now. The only thing that has phased me really is the fact that I have several water blisters on my toes from having to wear uncomfortable shoes to work.

Once I make a little more money though that will change.. so thats why I havent complained yet, cause uncomfortable shoes is only temporary. Hopefully.

Other than that I have no complaints.

I like my job so far. The girls that i've worked with so far, are really nice, I have a really nice boss, and she knows how to be fun, but be your boss at the same time.

The clothes aren't so bad.. I have to admit though... Tristan was semi-right about it being an "old ladies" store... SEMI right... not completely, cause we do get a fair amount of older women.. but we get a good age range of 20+... but there have even been a lot of little teeny boppers in the store aswell.

But I like some of the clothes. I think they're nice.

We play a lot of heavy-ish hip-hop music at work too though, which isn't sooooo bad... i'm not a huge fan of it, but it helps me get my tasks done quickly. .... And we like to have dance parties in the change rooms when no ones in the store.. and if the customers are cool enough, we have dance parties with them aswell.

I mentioned making decisions in my life. I dunno really what much to say, im just basically making decisions as far as, what i'm going to do.... I've made plans to move out with a roommate hopefully within the next 3-4 months, but lately i've been feeling like.. there's nothing here for me, but I also want to go to college. So decisions, A)move out with roommate (whom I get along with very well, and get excited thinking about living with her) B) Go back to Wales and stay... longer than a month C) Stay at home, go to collge.

Decisions, decisions, decisions....

I've been letting go of quite a few things this past week that were just too much for me to handle. I'm starting to look out for numero uno. I've been so busy tryin to please everyone else, that I kinda just... shoved myself aside. So thats starting to change.

Anyways..... This is getting too long and its insanely boring and probly pointless to a lot of you. But there you are.

Hope all is well!!

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How Stupid Do You Feel?

Hello all!!

Does anyone ever tell a story, and feel stupid after telling it?? I have done that one too many times.. and I was just reminded of it, because I was showing my mom this youtube video, and then she laughed at it, and then she went downstairs and started to tell my dad about said video, and she's sitting there, going into detail about this video, and she even starts acting part of it out, and she's laughing about it. And my dads just sitting there staring at her... and not laughing. Once she's done telling her story about the video that I had just shown her, it was just silent, and he just kinda walked away from her, and she walked away and just let out this sigh. And this thought went through my mind "oh man... That was kinda brutal. I wonder if she feels stupid? I feel stupid... I thought it was a funny video...maybe he would've laughed if he had actually watched the video himself..."

And then I feel even more stupid for thinking all of this to myself!!

Those moments have happened to me a ton of times! Where I'll start talking about something, or describing something... and then i'll get no response, and i'll feel insanely retarded.. But the people who just change the subject and act like the past ten... thirty minutes didnt happen, are the people who make me feel better about the situation.. the people who stand there and just stare at you for a certain amount of time and then reply "What was your point?" or "I'll bet you feel stupid" are the people who usually make you feel even worse. Sometimes... sometiems I'll just shrug it off and laugh, sometimes i'll be like "yupp... I'm an idiot."

Just a thought.

Guess whattt....

I got my cellphone back!! It was down for the past month or so, because I was broke, now its up. And i'm excited about it.. even though I only ever use it to text two people.. actually... More like one person. The other person barely ever texts me unless we have plans to hang out and he's picking me up. But no matter!! I have a phone. My life is lame and complete.

Oh and I went shopping today for my dress for my cousins wedding. Its pretty... I like it. I usually dont like dresses but I'm kind of excited about this one.

Did anyone do any awesome april fools pranks??

I totally forgot it was April fools!!! I had some pretty awesome pranks I wanted to do too.. And I ended up sleeping in.. I dont get why April fools is supposed to end at noon though? Why is that??

Anyways, Hope everyone is having a good week so far!!!

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